Wednesday, January 28, 2009
i'm having car problems again! back to the dealership you go.. and did i mention i'm super tired? yawwwwnnnn.. back to work.
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Tuesday, January 27, 2009
so danica uploaded some pictures from her bday! i stole these from her. enjoy hahah
beginning of the night..and i'm already goood.
ok my eyes look like slits here..it's cuz i actually blinked hahah whoa whoooa..tipping over! the girls! and my eyes finally decide to open i look like i'm enjoying this tooo much! hahah ending the night =) and no longer red! woo hoo!
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Monday, January 26, 2009
why hello hello! i made some red velvet cupcakes on saturday! vicky ate 8 of them. out of 12. HAHAH. must've been good ;) jk jk. so as niiight time approached, i got ready for danica's birthday celebration at Sabor! got dressed up and tiff and audz picked me up and we headed to her room in milpitas. drank some gooose there and that got me perked already! then we were on our way back to tiff's cuz she forgot her wallet. met everyone up at the perfect time in line and got in..free! woo hoo! we headed to the bar and bought some rounds..but by the end..i was doooone-zo! we didnt' dance much but attempted to a few times..apparently..people don't like to dance?? yeah.. so we just chilled outside in the patio! it was freezing but it was pretty cool just chillin and talking to everyone! it was a different crowd than what i'm used to. hahah. after, we went to the car and cozied up..changed some shoes and headed to get some LA VICSSS!! or i don't know how to spell it really =) but we decided to stop by vivid for a bit since it was no cover also. stayed there for a good 30 seconds cuz that shit was not crackin aaand we were in asia. got in line for food..got a carnitas super burrito. MMMMMM my goodness! it was delicious..i freakin looooove mexican food and especially burritos!!! their orange sauce was to diiie for too! after..we just ate in the car and i wasnt feeling too good so i put my burrito away and accidentally passed out in the back. i wanted to throw up so i was just trying to take my mind off of it. finally got home and was even MORE tempted to throw up! but i just went straight to bed and just slept it off. i was good =)! woke up and got ready for the lunar new year aka tet! we went to the cemetery to visit my uncle whom i haven't visited in forever. and to think, i used to cut class in high school to visit. i can't believe it's been 7 years already! things would be SO different if he were still here..i miss him a whole lot..rip uncle thang + jade! 111601. my cousins came over and it was fun to hang out with them! i just cleaned up my part of the room and tried to tidy up as much as possible. i guess i get a little superstitious around the new year since this is how i was raised to celebrate! it's more like a tradition that was passed down..or something that i'm so used to practicing growing up. i love being home because honestly..all the things that were instilled in me before i left college is basically all coming back. i'm speaking more vietnamese, i want to practice vegetarianism again..and i wish i could attend sunday school or read up on my religion some more. i feel like i've reconnected with my family..something that's extremely important to me..and welll..i'm just so glad to be home. the missing piece of me while i was away from school, is back. what sucks is that i have a huge chunk of me missing still =( we had tons of food for offering and when that was all finished, we got to eat it! crab noodles, crab and asparagus soup, stir fry, egg rolls, banh beo, quail..all the yummies!! i was finally rushed to get ready for my grandma's house since i've been lagging on that. we left and arrived to my dad's side of the family's huge tet party! usually when we have this annual party, my grandpa's brother's whole side of the family comes to celebrate with us as well! so we got there and had to greet everyone as usual and then ate! it was similar food that we had at home but with pork crackers and fried rice added! yummmy! we saw all our cousins and ended up playing cards and havin a ballll. i played with some little kids that were extremely adorable!! iloveeee kids!! but yeah..we caught up with everyone basically cuz i haven't seen everyone in soooo sooo long! all the kids that were so little before are so big now! it's crazy. and i was the oldest one there =( i'm olllld! and of course..i can't forget..the money rolllls in ! li xi li xi!! hahah. it was so freakin cold last night. as for tonight.. it's freezing as well! so today was tiring..and they say that whatever happens on the first day of the new year predicts the rest of the year. i tried to keep my cool today and i'm surprised i was able to do so! also, they say that when you clean up your house, etc for new years, it's symbolic for you cleansing your soul and starting off on a new slate. i definitely felt like i was free of whatever was lingering in the past. i feel like i'm a new person and that i can start all over again! anyways..i better enjoy this year cuz they say when your year rolls around (for me, tiger, which is next year!) you are doomed for the whole year. i guess it's what you want to believe though! these superstitions are fun though. but remember...your fate is always in your own hands. i found this on another blogger's webpage: nothingbuthats. here is their entry cuz i thought it was great..and definitely true since this is what we exactly follow! i guess i'll end my entry with their entry! CHUC MUNG NAM MOI!! "As with every culture's new year celebrations, Tet carries many traditions, superstitions, myths, folktales, etc. that imbue these special days with deep meaning. Nowadays, we follow them for fun. We follow them because of family traditions. We follow them to honor our cultural roots. Or, we follow them not at all. There are too many traditions and superstitions to list them all, but here are some: - Clean house top to bottom, including painting, especially the door.
- When sweeping, never sweep out the front door, or luck will go out the door.
- Wear new clothes. Red is an auspicious color. No unlucky black.
- All debts are paid or forgiven. No grudges kept. Return all borrowed items.
- The first day of the year, nothing should be swept out, because you'll shoo good luck away for the rest of the year.
- Never cut anything during new year's b/c you'll cut your luck (&/or longevity) in half.
- The first person to walk through your door will bring you luck. So find the right person w/ the right name, birth year, etc. to be the first to cross your threshold in the new year.
- When leaving your house for the expected new year visitations, the first thing you see will bold well or ill for your new year. (Those who see bad omens when leaving their house will often go back home, wait, then depart once again just for a fresh start.)
- Visit family sites, graves, altars, etc.
- Buy water or give water gifts b/c water suggests that in the new year, money will flow in like water.
- Receive lucky Li Xi envelopes filled with money!!! (Unless you're married, in which case you don't receive lucky Li Xi envelopes but you'll have to give red envelopes to single folks. Oh, the joys of married life.)"
oh did i tell you i'm practicing vegetarianism again? i will tell you more about that later! until then! ta ta!
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Saturday, January 24, 2009
hahah so i decided to visit my past livejournals so i can see how much i've changed and if i wrote less i cuz i notice i blab on like crazy. NOPE. still the same! hahaha http://zzzzdreaminzzzz.livejournal.comhttp://toxiicdreams.livejournal.comtoo bad a lot of my entries are private or friends-only. i guess you can read whatever's public..which is the shit that's not too relevant hahah suckkaah! anyways..my baby is taking his exams today for Orange Po po. he heard from irvzz yesterday and i'm just really excited for him! i know he had mentioned recently that he figured it just wasn't for him because of certain problems that may come with it in the future..but baby..it's something you've always wanted to do..so when you have the chance, why not take it? if you realize in the end that it's not for you..then you can find another job or career. at least you don't have to live with the guilt that you never gave it a chance and can figure out from the actual experience that it just isn't for you or that you can do better or that it's not the lifestyle you want to be living. baby, i'm proud that you took this first step. you're still young and you deserve to explore your options and to do what you've always wanted to do. i still support you 100% even though you said that it might not be for you. i'm just glad you're giving it a chance and not doubting all the opportunities it can bring you in the future. although it's dangerous, i know you'll be great baby. you'll be great at WHATEVER it is that you're doing. i KNOW it. If you ever need anything, never hesitate to ask me because i'll do whatever it takes to help you out! I LOVE YOU JAKE! love always, me. the weather's gloomy today..and i don't know what im doing in the daytime yet. HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY DANICA!! she's the first out of our bunch to hit the 2-3. it's alll going downhill from here! probably blog again soon. yes yes..laters.
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Friday, January 23, 2009
HA! my instincts were absolutely right..i knew i shouldn't have driven home on wednesday. so i left work right after my last post and everything seemed fine..at first. i was driving and there was tons of traffic still so my car was ok driving slow. after about 20 miles..i was at auto mall parkway when my car was just not functioning anymore. it kept jolting and the rpm kept shooting up but i was seriously getting NOWHERE. i kept trying and there was enough traffic to keep going slow without getting in the way of other cars. just as traffic was speeding up, my car wouldn't anymore. everyone was going about 60-70 while my car was struggling to go 50. i turned my emergency lights and kept to the right. of course i was hellla panicking! you know me, i stress and panic all the time hahah especially in situations like these where im just scared shitless of what's going to happen and i don't know what to do. i was talking to my baby on the phone and kept switching back and forth with him and my dad. they both told me i should pull over to the side of the road. i was just 2 exits away from home but my car just wouldnt go anymore because it went down to not being able to go over 40mph on the freeway! im sure cars were damn frustrated but i couldnt do anything! so i pulled over to the side of the freeway and waited for my dad to come pick me up. ughh..waiting on the side of the freeway? by myself..in the dark. i was scared! and cars were coming by sooo fast! i felt like i was too close to the freeway so i moved a little bit more in towards the wall. my dad came to rescue me and we switched cars. i just hopped in my car..left my purse in my car..along with my liscence and my phone! then my dad zoomed off and i lost him and i couldnt call him to see where he was going! hahaha he just said..follow me. and hellla left me! i was like..shit! so i just drove home. and then luckily he was there. duuh tiff..duuuuh. my dad checked my car and we decided we had to take it to the dealership. yesterday was LONG. i woke my ass up at 6:20 and left the house at 7 to get to the honda dealership in hayward by the time it opened at 7:30. my mom came to pick me up at 8..which was the time she was supposed to drive my siblings to school. so they had to ask my grandpa to drive them. turns out..my 3rd gear was worn out. OKKKK..weird cuz i drive an automatic? hahah but yeah. it makes sense though. that's why my car wouldnt go past 40-50! then i had to get my transmission fluid flushed and then guess how much everything cost me?? $500!! what the helllll!! AND i didn't even get my major tune up which was another $536! thats already a freakin G! and that's not even including parts that need to be changed for my tune up. =( this week was the longest freakin week in the whole wide world. work was extremely extremely busy. my first year-end. and maybe my last? oh boy. i'm glad this week's over. danica's birthday tomorrow night and tet on sunday! lunar new year yaaay =) celebration time! time to unwind..
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Wednesday, January 21, 2009
oh nooo..what's happening to my carrrr!! i'm really afraid to drive it right now..that's why i'm just chillin at work, waiting for traffic to die down. there's something wrong with my transmission =( whenever i gas, the damn car doesnt go anywhere but the rpm would zoom all the way up! it's like im just revving my car on neutral hahah. speeed racer! annnd whenever i brake, my car jolts like im getting rear-ended and shit. i always think i'm getting hit. grrrr. what the hell do i do. how am i going to get to work tomorrow! my dad works right next to me but i don't want to leave the house at 6! i usually don't leave until 8:30ish. gotta get my sleep hahah. american idol on tonight? lost is on tonight! i have to get on that and catch up! dude, this is the longest week of work everrrrr..everrr!! i need to start posting pictures. except there's something wrong with my laptop too. i really should invest in a new one. ok that was a random post. almost 6. i should leave soon. latros!
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Tuesday, January 20, 2009
why, hello! today is the day that our 44th president, Barack Obama, gets inaugurated! i missed it in the morning but caught only a little bit of the end. I wasn't able to watch his speech until a few hours ago with my parents and also got to watch a the beginning of the inauguration ball as well. let me just say, when him and michelle were dancing, they were SOOOO freakin cute!! i was like..awwwww!! they looked so adorable and soo..in love! and just really cute-sy. he was all kissin up on her and everything hahah. today was history. i can't believe that we finally have a black president! it really did make me emotional watching part of the inauguration this morning and also seeing all the footage and hearing them announce Obama as the President of the United States.who knew this day would come? and with this..more opportunities will arise, and to whomever wants to take and handle that shit! now everyone can say they want to be the president because hell, it's possible now and we're living it! all thanks to him. yes we can! si se puede! hahah. hope. change. a new era. i'll leave it off with this..just cuz we bay heads are so tiiiiite. http://www.nbcbayarea.com/news/local/Bush-Street-Disappears-in-SF-Overnight.htmlstolen from eden on facebook. besides all this..today i got a call from my mom telling me to go to the mall after work to get some free stuff! we all got an email from Maricel this morning about a class action lawsuit where if we were to go to certain department stores today, we could get one free item. these items were freakin brand named expensive shit! like chanel, dior, ralph lauren, armani, clinique, estee lauder, sarah jessica parker, vera wang, etc etc etc! i got to newpark mall and the line was SO effin long. i was like..helllll no..by myself? no company? and i have to wait in this line? i don't have the damn patience. you must be kidding me. hahaha my parents got a total of 6 items and went 2 times at newpark and once at southland. nice! they got some armani and CK shower gel for my dad, and romance shower gel and 3 night treatments from estee for my mom. nice deal! but yeah..me? nooooo. i'd rather pay for stuff i want and not waste my precious little time! recap: sunday -my baby decides to wake up at almost 2! -had the craziest dream about jake and another girl hahahah -took william to newpark -exchanged my SF hat for another one since the lids in socal punked me good (left the adhesive from the sticker all along the rim!) -bought 2 pairs of flats from shiekh. buy one get one free! -bought a bobby shirt from hot topic! -went to target to buy a whole bunch of necessities -hole in my wallet. -since i haven't spoken to jake in a million years, we talked for like 3 hours on the phone and finally got to catch up! i love this fella. my fine fine fella! (move here already!) -my grandpa's brother's death anniversary = helllllla food..helllla GOOOOD foooood!! and duuuck. i love roasted duck! and had chicken curry, and eggrolls, and pork, and stir-fry, and quail, and yummy soy sauce! viet people eat some crazy shit sometimes hahah oh yeah. i bought some charp chae today! =) woohooo! monday: -got home early without traffic cuz of MLK day! -watched a bit of the laker's game. GO LAKERS!! they rocked the cavs. -ate some grapefruit/pomelo. -had toooons of me-time which i love so much! and read my cosmo magazine. siiigh i love it when i have time to do what i want! i think that's it! history today. note it. until then betches.
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
hello hello! i had 2 first times this weekend! i definitely must share! i was supposed to have dinner on friday night with tiff, audrey, and mare but right after work, i knew my mom was cooking my most favorite dinner and viet dish in the whole wide world so i came home for a little bowl of bun bo hue! i got ready really fast and changed into some comfy clothes and headed over to Lucky's to buy ski lift tickets for Heavenly in Tahoe. after maybe half an hour (because of the horrible parking situations at union landing on friday nights), i finally made it over to tiff's! Tiff made dinner and it was really delicious! salmon with mayo and lemon pepper, rice, corn, broccoli (sp?), and salad. we had really good talks and vents about certain stuff. i find it really amazing how everything they've all been through, i've been through as well! i'm just going to keep it vague though, no need to spill all the juice =) i just can't believe how certain situations we've gone through in life are so similar, and some so exact! It's really nice to relate to others about those kind of things and not feel so left out and to have input on the situations. After a reallly good talk, tiff made some red velvet cupcakes (which i really did think were delicious!) and we busted out the magic-mic. that was my first time singing in front of them! i was really nervous and shy but just did it anyways. i don't know why i lost my voice so fast and ended up sounding like a man hahah. they all sing really well! and so beautifully =) we started off with killing me softly, threw in some whitney, and after a kazillion songs, we eventually made our way to mare singing you are my sunshine hahah. i had a great time catching up with them and just chillin. i love nights in like this and would so much prefer it more than going out anyday! i left and arrived home around 1. hit the sack at 1:30. Then my alarm woke me up at 4:30AM! got up, got dressed really warm (a t-shirt, two pairs of thermals, and a ski jacket, tights, sweats and ski pants!) put on some lightweight makeup (for spf of course hahah thanks to bareminerals!) we left around 5:15 ish after loading my car with the snowboard gear and extra clothes. it was just me and my aunt. we got gas and then headed up the mountain! it took about 3.5 hours to get to Heavenly and on the way we got some mcdonalds! we got there and met up with my uncle Toan, their Cousins Thanh and his wife Carol, Jamie's brother Buu and his wife Jackie, and Cliff and Cheryl. On the way up the mountain, i noticed the sun was realllly bright and big (reallly big actually)! blinding almost. and it really was beautiful. i have a soft spot for nature hahah. when we got there, we geared up and all went to the lift that took us to the top of the mountain. it was really windy and sunny (so it was kind of hot!) and all the snow was blowing in our faces and mouth, etc. there were 2 other first-timers so i didn't feel so left out! my aunt taught me how to strap on and walk with the board on one foot and walk with the board with both feet strapped in. basically, she just explained in 2 minutes how to stop, and balance myself, and then threw me in there to learn-by-example! i was able to get up but maaan it's so difficult to balance myself! that was probably the hardest part. when i'd fall, i found it took so much energy to get back up and i was just so outta breath. hahah i can be such a little bitch sometimes. after trying and trying again it took us about 2 hours to get down the slope. In the middle of it, my aunt pulled us to the side where, for some reason, the snow was extremely icy and hollow! so she was walking and her whole LEGGG got stuck in the snow for a quick second! we were laughing uncontrollably! we chilled at the bottom of the slope for about another 2 hours hahahah before our next attempt! we were pooped i tell you! the second time we went down, i was the last one to get all the way down. everyone else was doing really well! it was so funny cuz when i was waiting in line for the lift, i was standing on the left and carol was on the right. right when the lift came to pick us up, carol sat on my side so i was just stuck and didn't know what to do and the lift was still coming! so the lift ended up dragging me while i was facing it and they had to hit the emergency stop hahaha! oh my gosh i was screaming for dear life. when we got off the lift, i was able to go down and made myself stop before i hit anyone. little did i know, i stopped too soon and the next person to get off the lift completely ran into me! ouch! but i was ok hahah. the second time on the lift, i just missed it completely and they had to stop it (AGAIN!) for me to get on. i'm such a dork. im sure people had some great laughs watching me! oh man..i just find it so funny to write about. i want to include so much more details but this entry is going to be sooo long! so continuing on the second time. i found it a lot easier to just go down by myself and not have anyone teaching me/helping me out. there was definitely less pressure. so as i was going down, i was able to gain more balance and was able to learn how to brake/slow down. also, it was a lot easier getting up this time. i just had to make sure i had the will power to keep going! i was able to go down without falling as much and had longer streaks without falling! i was actually really proud of myself! since im scared of heights (well slopes actually, this goes for hiking too), im afraid to just go downhill. I need to man up cuz i would really like to go boarding again and just let myself go instead of being a little chicken and stopping all the time. i forgot to mention i was so sore from going down the first time! when i woke up, i felt like i just did a thousand push-ups (and trust me, i know how that feels! hahah). my ass was ok, it didn't hurt that much. except for my tailbone cuz i fell pretty hard the second time around and as i was trying to get up again, some fool ran into me, causing me to slide down the hill about 2 feet. hahah. my legs were definitely sore! but it was mostly my shoulders and arms forsuuure. siiiigh. i love trying new things! makes me feel so adventurous. i can't wait to go again so i can practice! i would love to have my own (cute) boarding gear! hahah plus, it's a hot sport! i'm not too satisfied with this entry, not sure why. i guess i wish i could explain more in detail everything i went through! i want to be able to remember this down the road. that's why i have a blog again in the first place. it's for me. it's so i can look back and see what i've accomplished, or not. it's so i can remind myself that i don't just sit around all the time! haahha anyways, my aunt took ONE picture of me..while i was up! i shall definitely post it when i get it! we drove home, hit a bunch of traffic back in the bay and hit up sushi house! yummmmmy!! had salmon, the hella hot roll, the island roll, salad, and this tempura roll with unagi and avocado on the top. this is the best sushi place ever!!! finally got home around 9:30pm, took a shower and knocked out pretty goood! shook a lot, like a baby yenno. hahah until then suckaaaahzzz.
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Friday, January 16, 2009
From my facebook note=) Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. No one tagged me but i've had such a good time reading other people's 25/20/16 things! Then i thought i'd challenge myself and see if i could come up with some things since it's not something i really think about everyday yenno? here goes! 1. i've had 2 major surgeries in my life. if you're ever wondering where i got my huge zipper scar from on my chest, i had heart surgery when i was 10 for a heart murmur. i was born with it, went away, and then all of a sudden came back. my younger younger sister vicky had the same surgery at the same age! the other surgery was for a lump in my boob. they said it would just keep growing but wasn't cancerous and that it'd be best if i just take it out. so i just did it. one other major surgery that gave me the creeps was getting my wisdom teeth out hahahahha. OMG. worst feeling ever. 2. i still get disgusted about pooping. i hate it! i hate the feeling and i feel it's so dirty =( someone knock some sense into me hahaha. i seriously can't get over it after almost 23 years. just can't! 3. my boyfriend was the FIRST guy i met in irvine altogether. he was the first guy i met in the dorms and after almost 4 years..we're still together! a lot of people doubted us but i'm so glad we made it this far. i love him to death. i guess he's my love at first sight. hahah 4. one of my favorite things everrr..everrr..are clean bedsheets! i just love the smell of them and how they feel when you put them on your bed and when they're still warm and you're all snuggged up in there. and of course waking up to the scent of yummy bedsheets in the morning! 5. which leads to this one..i have this big huge thing for smell. i don't know what it is. i love the scent of things. things that smell good of course! like food, flowers, natural scents. not things like poop. gag! 6. i'm scared of escalators. it takes me a while to get on one..and i have to be on the left side getting on always, and i'll step with one foot at a time. i guess it's because my little brother (or was it my cousin?) fell down a set of escalators when he was 5 at a toy store (who puts escalators in toy stores..helllloooo idiots..toy stores = kids?!). 7. i know this is going to sound weird..but im afraid of people with red/orange hair. im not being a racist to people with red/orange hair and i definitely don't hate them..it 's just i get very stressed and have a very high anxiety level when i see people with red/orange hair cuz that shit reminds me of chucky the doll/the killllller. sldkfskldjf;sld gives me the creeps thinking about it!! shivers. 8. i have this thing called an expense tracker. i basically write down all the money that comes in and everything that i spend it on..in an excel sheet. im a fuckin nerd i know. hahaah. but i can never trust the wellls fargo site cuz it's not accurate and up-to-date most of the time. with this tracker, i know exactly how much i have and what i'm putting my money towards. i even catgorize all my spendings and make pivot tables to show what percentage/how much i'm spending in each category. then i write how much and what i spend on each paycheck, save all the receipts, and staple it to a copy of my timesheet and put it in my personal finance folder for my records. wow..i feel like a nerd beyond maaax. hahahah. oh yeah..after thousands of $s in debt..i'm now debt free! 9. i've never broken a bone in my body! knock on wood. 10. i love to clean clean clean. it relieves a lot of stress that i have. but, the kind of cleaning i like..is like..cleaning things until the space is clear. i hate clutter! look at my cube, my car, and parts of my room. they have massive empty spaces! things just have to be hidden to look "clean" for me. i also like cleaning countertops and toilets and vacuuming my car. hahah 11. besides loving to clean, the one thing i CANT get myself to do everyday is PUT MY CLOTHES AWAY!! i find THAT a hassle and i hate it. so that's the only thing that really causes clutter in my room. 12. things that i constantly crave are..charp chae, sushi, thai food, and sandwiches. i will mention one of those items at least 4 days out of the week. only once in a blue moon will i actually go out and get it. oh something else, i never crave sweets. i actually crave the salty, sour, spicy, and pickly foods. im a sucker for food and trying new things and foods that are extremely flavorful. 13. i really want to get my boobs done. but i told myself (and pray haha im just saying that) that when i get pregnant, my boobs will get bigger and that i won't need to get them done. but if they don't get bigger..i'll definitely want to get some. i'm not looking for huge ones..just ones that actually look "normal" for a girl my size. like big B's or even just B's hahahah. but i heard you have to re-do that shit every 10 years. not sure if i'm down for that. 14. so i don't smoke. anything. i've tried it, but i've hated it! i can count how many times on my hands that i did. my aunt just told me that she heard i was a pot head. now some of you guys are going to crack up pretty hard cuz..me???? a pot head??? that's like..not in a million freakin years!! i just thought that was so funny. cuz if you're going to talk..at least get the facts straight and not choose something so random to tie me to. i barely drink! 15. i would love so much to beat some sense into a bitch one day. 16. i'm really afraid of the future or what's going to happen in the next 2-5 years! if you think about it.. it's the year we all turn 23..and then sometime..you're going to have to find a stable career/job, get engaged, married, get your own home, and have kids. ummm..those are all life-changing situations. and shit's gunna happen soon! how scaaaaary!! oh yeah, i have to fit business school into there too! it's something i've always wanted to accomplish in life! i love school =) 17. i can't leave anywhere without my vase-line. it's vaseline lip therapy but the world knows i call it vase-line! 18. i adore kids. i always have! i remember the kids first days where i would stop by cabello and tutor/help out/play with little kindergarteners and 1st graders, etc. plus being the oldest in my family, i feel like i took on some responsibilities in taking care of my younger siblings. i've learned a lot about caring for a baby especially since my little brother came out and i'm almost 10 years older than him! i want to have 4 kids just like my parents did, and 2 of them to be twins! 19. i played the piano for 8 years but barely know how to play. i never took it seriously back then and i extremely regret it! i want to start playing again but learn how to play alicia keys and john legend, etc. songs! and sing along tooo =) cuz i love singing even though i'm not good at it. haha. oh yeah i played the clarinet in middle school too! 20. because i love to curl my eyelashes so much..i'm missing a lot of them on the inner part of my top eyelid on my right eye. i've been only putting mascara to work everyday and not curling them so that they can grow out again. i only now curl them on special occasions or when i go out! oh yeah, i have this new obsession for benefit make-up. i love natural-looking make-up! 21. umm..i'm afraid of birds. actually i just hate birds altogether. i've never really had good experiences with them. i hate things that fly such as insects, bugs, whatevers. they always get stuck in my hair. ALWAYS!! if i see something that flies coming towards my way, i will assume it'lll get stuck in my hair and damn..it usually never fails!! hahah i know. so weird!! 22. if you've lied to me before, and i found out, i will never forget it. ever. i'll forgive, but will never forget. 23. i find myself to be an extremely nice person..but just throughout college i've learned to be the biggest bitch ever! i guess i was just put into situations where i kept getting stepped all over and got fed up with it. i finally did something about and now i can be a pretty good bitch if i need to be. 24. althought me and my sister look tons alike, we are NOTHING alike! we are actually the complete opposites. and we have extremely strong personalities that clash like no other, giving us no choice but to fight and argue about our beliefs, all the damn time! 25. my middle name is kim chi. everytime i mention it or someone sees it on my liscence theyre just like..your middle name is kim chi..like the PICKLED CABBAGE?! like the korean fooood?! i'm just like..heeh..yeaaah..but NO. cuz i'm not korean. it's a viet name and it means something totally different. like..gold or golden tree branch or something like that hahaha. until then!
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
hellllooo...the emptiness in me..solved. I guess i should be thankful for where i am in life right now because so many other people are struggling to get jobs or even starting their careers. but, i found that having a full time job right out of school and not having time to myself to travel, do what i want to do, etc., is really depressing! it has been so sunny this past week and here i am, stuck in an office, working. i miss having the freedom to be outside in the daytime, smelling the fresh air as i walk to class, or just plain chilllin when i can. i guess what im trying to say is that..i miss school and im not ready to be stuck in this 8-5 repetitive i-want-to-shoot-myself-for-being-so-routine schedule. i miss having the flexible schedule and getting off class early and being able to choose if i want to go to class or not. with work, i have no choice but to get up at the same time everyday and leave work when the sun's already setting. i asked my co-workers how they do it..but they say they're just so used to it since they've been working for a while now. for me, i really find it hard to deal with and it's what has been bugging me ever since i've been back to work. during the company shut down, i realized how much i miss life before working full-time. i miss spending all day with my baby, going on adventures, or just sleeping in until past noon. i miss being able to drive to random places, running errands when no one else is, just having the freedom to CHOOOSE what I want to do at the moment. i'm so miserable right now!! and it's crazy because i really should be happy because i've accomplished so much getting this position. of course, i am thankful. i just look at the situation..as..well..more positively than i feel. the ups of working is that i guess i have the opportunity to save for my future..save for my own place that i've always wanted...and get experience for business school (something that i'm dying to accomplish in my lifetime within these next 3-4 years). i've also been able to get a start on my career, since i'm doing accounting right now. but geeeez..why do i feeeel like this? it's driving me nuts. and what's crazy is that my position is temp and i have no way of getting days off of work so that i can enjoy whatever's out there or even time for myself. i miss irvine. <-- the best years of my life so far <3 until then..
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
i like how when im either in the shower or getting ready for work, i run all these topics i can write about in my blog..but then forget what to actually write about. hahah i'm such THE nerd. i guess i should just go with the flooooow eh? ehhh? so last saturday kim was back in town so we went to tiff's place to do some hot potting on our own! it was really fun and delicious. there was sooo much food! it was tiff, kim, mare, me and two of kim's friends. danica came by for a little bit also! we had some beef, seaweed, fish paste, fish balls, bok choy, spinach, cabbage, shrimp, mussels, and mooooore! it was so fun, and healthy i might add. thanks tiff for letting us use your place =) it was definitely nice catching up with some of the girls since i haven't seen any of them in the longest time since i've been home. that's something i need to work on: my relationships with my girlfriends. anyways, now im in the mood to go karaoke-ing since im not coughing every other second anymore! let's go! oh and then we played a little rock band. i only played the drums once. i wish i couldve sang but i don't know too many of the songs! hahah so last night i missed 90210 and privileged (i know. nerd status again) to watch american idol. im pretty glad i watched it because some of the people are really amazing! but then again, we got to see the funnnny ass people who think they can sing. i always love how theyre so..ambitious? whats the word..not sure what it is. can't find it. anyways, congrats to my baby! he's taking his first steps in becoming what he's always wanted to be: a cop. he has his tests next saturday so let's wish him some luck (even though he doesn't need it at all!). i know it's so ironic how i freakin hate cops cuz of everything that i've been through growing up and the person i'm madly in love with..wants to be one. craaazy shit. i never thought i'd ever be ok with it, but from his point of view and why he's doing it, i totally support him. i guess cops don't always have to be dicks, it's just what they have to do sometimes. but as for the danger factor..im frightened. i don't want to be a widow =( i just tell him to be safe if he gets this job. i really love him so of course i'm going to be ok with it and support him fully. if not, that really shows. anyways..back to work!
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
here i am sitting in my cube..not getting any work done. i've decided to make another blog! i've been wanting one for a long time but could never get myself to actually make one. today i feel an emptiness in me. I'm not sure what it is or why i'm feeling this way but it's really driving me off the wall. i don't think i can concentrate while in this state of mind. i think i just really need a day to myself so i can reflect on this past year (which i haven't been able to do yet) and i actually do make it a point to give myself this time before the beginning of a new year. i feel like there's no direction in my life right now since i haven't made my new years resolutions but haven't had the time to actually sit and think them all out. not writing out my expenses have also been making me feel like my life is not organized right now. something i can't really stand. i guess i can start again once my first paycheck for the year comes! well this is just jibber jabber. im so afraid i won't have anything to write about since i only work full time and there's not much excitement in my life. well i guess this is it for now. until then..
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